January 2007

52 Pick Up.

January 28, 2007

When it became obvious that there was no kitten in my immediate future I hied myself to IKEA and bought a plant. I generally stay away from plants due to my extraordinary ability to render them withered and lifeless, but perhaps this specimen will be heartier. The Actually has two plants already, Planty and Sal [...]

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Mountain back to molehill.

January 18, 2007

The Actually says yes, four cats are too many. He forbids me to adopt a kitten, a kitten that is in NEED OF A HOME, a kitten in a SHELTER. A kitten that probably will end up on the streets, selling its tiny, fluffy body for milk. Not even a little one, one that would [...]

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Womb and Gloom.

January 17, 2007

1. I went back to work today. I couldn’t sleep, so I was at my desk by six a.m. Work was good in that it kept me occupied and out of the house, bad in that I was constantly this close (fingers held barely apart) to crying, which did not go unnoticed. Also, my co-worker [...]

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Third time is anything but charming.

January 16, 2007

Today’s beta was only 18-point-something. I would laugh, but…you know. Because there was such a long wait between blood draws, we have hope that it went up a few days ago and is now on its way back down. The speedier the resolution the better, in my opinion. I have a repeat beta on Thursday, [...]

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Que Sera

January 15, 2007

Well, I am still pregnant. No spotting, and tests remain positive. Not terribly dark, but positive all the same. I am feeling surprisingly calm, and actually had a lovely weekend with the lovely Schnozz. Really, it was the best time a girl could have while waiting to see if she will miscarry, and I will [...]

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Still here.

January 12, 2007

This morning the pregnancy tests I have been taking for the past five days finally turned slightly positive. It was odd to watch the faint pinkish band appear and not feel happy. I haven’t seen that second line for two years; I have imagined countless times since then the day it would reappear. I suppose [...]

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Welcome to beta hell. Now with depressing update

January 11, 2007

Beta= 15.7 at 14dpo Progesterone=13 I am cautiously pessimistic. No repeat beta until Tuesday because of the holiday weekend. This cannot possibly end well. *Update* So, I just went to slap in some Crinone, just in case, and when I removed the applicator, there was brown on the tip. Apparently, I’m spotting, somewhere. This just [...]

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Chickety Check.

January 11, 2007

Temperatures still preposterously high, and no sign of spotting. Test this morning was negative, with a chance of evaporation line. The clinic wants me to come in this afternoon for a beta and progesterone test. My money is still on a corpus luteum cyst, because that would be most annoying and inconvenient, and the most [...]

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I am a ray of sunshine.UPDATED

January 9, 2007

Thursday the Actually and I have an appointment with a psychologist at our fertility clinic. This appointment is required before we can proceed with IVF. The initial 60 minute session will cost $160, and should the psychologist feel further sessions are necessary, she can insist upon up to two more. Alternatively, she may decide to [...]

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Blush and Bashful.

January 4, 2007

First of all, I feel I should tell you that I got all the way to putting on my coat to go to work this morning before I noticed I wasn’t wearing a shirt. Makeup done, earrings on, pants, shoes, bra…and I would have walked out the door that way had I not noticed my [...]

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A wrinkle in timing.

January 2, 2007

Believe me, I’m just as tired of thinking about my Lady Cycles as you are of hearing about them, but alas things keep happening. If you want to stop reading now I will understand, and I promise to post something non-Lady-Cycle-related tomorrow. *** Late last week, on cycle day 20-something, my temperature shot up. I [...]

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