Welcome to beta hell. *Now with depressing update*

by Alexa on January 11, 2007

Beta= 15.7 at 14dpo

Progesterone=13

I am cautiously pessimistic.
No repeat beta until Tuesday because of the holiday weekend.

This cannot possibly end well.

*Update*
So, I just went to slap in some Crinone, just in case, and when I removed the applicator, there was brown on the tip. Apparently, I’m spotting, somewhere. This just looks better and better.

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Heather January 11, 2007 at 4:26 pm

I know nothing about numbers and what should be how many by when – but I’m hopeful for you. Hope the next beta is nice and high.

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Mollywogger January 11, 2007 at 4:29 pm

GAHHH.

Holy shit.

Be brave.

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Lindy January 11, 2007 at 4:32 pm

Holy Fuckin Moly, Girl! Beta hell indeed. Cautiously pessimistic sounds like a good approach (to most things, really), but I’ll just say that it could possibly end well. Possibly.

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MsPrufrock January 11, 2007 at 4:35 pm

Fucking Innard Twin bodies. Fucking ambiguities.

I’m thinking of you darlin’.

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Kim January 11, 2007 at 4:37 pm

Just wanted to chime in with a thinking of you. I hope better news awaits you.

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DD January 11, 2007 at 4:49 pm

Oh, christonacracker, Alexa. I can’t believe your clinic isn’t available for, or doesn’t make available, an opportunity to get follow-up betas done.

I’ll be fervently thinking of you over the weekend.

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Mandy January 11, 2007 at 4:58 pm

I have no idea what any of that means (in terms of good or bad), but I’ll be cautiously optimistic for you!

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Jen January 11, 2007 at 5:03 pm

Well, crap.

I don’t know that the brown spotting necessarily means anything bad, but the beta…well, you know.

Then again, weirder things have worked out, so I will hold onto hope for you! And seriously, what kind of sadists make you wait all weekend for a follow-up beta?

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EJW January 11, 2007 at 5:27 pm

Ugh. Tuesday?!? That’s just cruel.

I’m crossing my fingers for you, just in case.

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Dooneybug January 11, 2007 at 5:43 pm

HOLY SHIT WOMAN!

Tuesday? That royally sucks!!

I’m certainly keeping you in my thoughts!

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electriclady January 11, 2007 at 8:26 pm

Aw jeez. Beta fucking hell indeed. You have to wait FIVE DAYS? Thinking of you.

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Leggy January 11, 2007 at 9:07 pm

Ugh- how crappy that they are making you wait. I’m hoping all is okay.

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Kate January 11, 2007 at 9:37 pm

Am I a huge dork to suggest any optimism here? I mean, it could be okay right? It has for many, many others that I’ve read about. I, have had 3 losses myself, in a very similar fashion so I understand the hesitation to be optimistic but the more I read blogs the more positive outcomes I see and so, well, I just send you some hope and good thoughts and tell you to have some faith and who knows what can happen? Am I missing something here about a holiday weekend? What holiday. Kate

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Josie January 11, 2007 at 10:06 pm

OMG-I am so sorry I missed your call. I can’t believe it!

They are making you wait until Tuesday? That is purely f’ed up.

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Kath January 12, 2007 at 3:46 am

Oh, Alexa, just sitting and trembling. I wish this were straightforward good news for once. I’m so sorry for this. Hang in there, sweetie.

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KLynn January 12, 2007 at 5:42 am

Optimistic…Optimistic…Optimistic…

Implantation spotting?

This kind of waiting is even worse than the 2ww.

Thinking of you, and hoping Tuesday comes quickly with no further negativity.

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Flicka January 12, 2007 at 7:25 am

Well hot damn! Blogger doesn’t give me the feed for two posts and this is what I miss? Cautiously pessimistic indeed. Hang in there, babes. I wish I knew what else to say.

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Erin January 12, 2007 at 8:22 am

What the fuck? I’ll be cautiously pessimistic with you. This sucks.

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TB January 12, 2007 at 9:04 am

It could be implantation spotting, If you are a late implanter like me, brown is the color. I going to continue to be cautiously optimistic right along with you until I hear otherwise.

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Baby Blues January 12, 2007 at 9:16 am

I don’t know what to say. But just hang in there and know we’re here.

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T January 12, 2007 at 12:26 pm

Can you not go to a quest and get bloods done tomorrow? What about today? HOW WILL YOU MAKE IT THROUGH THE WEEKEND? HOW WILL WE?

Worst thing about beta hell – typically not being able to drink. Typically.

I’m sorry.

p.s. holyshit though – kwim?

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T January 12, 2007 at 12:33 pm

btw – I’m sure you know – brown is fine – it’s red you don’t want and it ain’t spottin’ when you go in after it! he he.

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Zee January 12, 2007 at 12:44 pm

OMG! Alexa! How cool (the positive) and yet how horrible (the low beta)! Not sure what to say except that I’m thinking of you and hoping for something good.

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Carol January 12, 2007 at 1:23 pm

oh jeez. I think sometimes these low betas are worse than negative betas. Chances are you’re right about the direction you think it’s going to go. I hope you’re wrong. But I know the reality of it too.

That bites big time that they won’t to a beta over the weekend. Can you get someplace else to do it? lame!

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monicamrsmonicatoyou January 12, 2007 at 1:36 pm

Ok, I’m choosing the optimistic side.
I immediately googled “hcg 14 dpo” and will remain optimistic!
Can you go to the ER for the beta test?!
Maybe you ovulated later than you thought?!
Agghh!!
Don’t be depressed just yet …

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christina January 12, 2007 at 2:59 pm

oh my.oh no.but maybe? but no. unless, that. and people have. and spotting in early PG normal. but maybe not. but it could be. although, unlikely. others have. and did. but hers didn’t work out. but she isn’t you. and it could be. it could be. it could be.

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