Today’s beta was only 18-point-something.
I would laugh, but…you know.
Because there was such a long wait between blood draws, we have hope that it went up a few days ago and is now on its way back down. The speedier the resolution the better, in my opinion. I have a repeat beta on Thursday, and I would really like it if this were over by then. Any idea how long these things take to get started?
If you need me, I’ll be at the pharmacy, refilling my no-longer-contra-indicated Lorazepam prescription.
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oh no. I am so, so sorry… my most heartfelt internet hugs… *heavy sigh*
Oh. Crap. I am SO sorry. I really thought that this one would work out for you. Screw the universe. Not fucking fair!
Fuck.
I’m sorry, Alexa.
I’m so sorry. That effin blows.
…hugs.
Oh, Alexa. How awful. I know you weren’t being optimistic, but still.
I’m really sorry.
Well…shit.
SHIT.
I’m sure I don’t have to mention how much I think that truly and completely sucks.
Damn. I’m so sorry. I was so so hoping that this would be the one. I’m sorry for this sucky time.
Liz
Fuck.
I’m so sorry.
I hope this doesn’t drag on for you.
all the expletives stated above.
so.very.sorry.
dammit.
crap. thats even worse than the worst…the lingering beta.
good grief. hope this chapter closes soon for you. very soon.
I’m so sorry. This blows.
I’m so sorry Alexa. I agree that it had to have gone up and is on its way down. Can you put your redraw off til Friday – just to give it another day to come down?
SHIT.
Goddamn it.
Well, isn’t a chemical pregnancy a great load of fun.
Call me if you need to.
Crap.
Please call me if you need to – I will be home after 7 this evening.
Damn.
Oh no! I was so hoping for the best. Bugger it.
Ah bollocks I am sorry.
Well, fuck. I’m so sorry, sweetie. So, so sorry. Nothing like a pre-IVF miscarriage to give you a total mind-fuck.
I’m so very sorry. I had two chemical pregnancies or miscarriages (depends on which doctor is talking about it). It is so sad waiting for the beta to go down.
sorry. :-(
:(
I tried to mail you a piece of bacon, but it made the envelope all greasy, so I will just send you my sympathy. Which is less tasty but also requires no postage.
I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry Alexa; my heart goes out to you.
Delurking to say that I’m so sorry to hear this…life is just so ridiculously unfair sometimes. Hope the ordeal passes quickly.
Sucks. I’m sorry.
Sucks.
I’m sorry Alexa.
fuck. delurking to say fuck.
(so sorry, alexa)
Sigh. Everyone has said it, and everyone is right…this sucks. Keeping you in my thoughts doesn’t do much to change your situation, but I’m doing it anyway. I’m sure lots of other people are too.
Damn it- I’m sorry. Damn, damn, damn.
But you did make an egg! That worked, sort of! And the dress will fit better!
And lorazepam is good!
Vodka, too.
Yeah.
I am so very sorry. This sucks so incredibly much. Definitely drinks are in order.
So sorry, Alexa.
Wish it could have been different. I hope you & the Actually are ok.
Dammit. I was really hoping this might work. Damn, damn, damn. I’m so sorry.
I’m so sorry Alexa.
I am so sorry. It is just all so unfair.
Oh sweetie, I’m so very, very sorry.
Stupid blood draws. Stupid beta.
Excellent lorazepam.
I am just really really sorry. I know what you are going through and it’s hard and it sucks and I wish it wasn’t happening to you.
Aw man. I am so sorry.
cruddity crap crap crap.
I’m so sorry.
Thinking of you.
Dear Alexa, I am so, so sorry to read this. How I wish you could have been spared this, sweetie.
Oh, Alexa. I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry, Alexa. :(
Oh Alexa, I was so hoping this was going to work for you :(
I don’t know if I’ve delurked before or not, but I found you through Pixie and I’ve been here ever since.
Alexa, I’m so sorry. Really, really sorry.
God, Alexa, that more than sucks. I’m so sorry.
Damn. The fucking blows. I ache for you and your disappointment. I still offer up karma, good thoughts and the belief that it will somehow work out. Hang in there.
Dammit! Just…dammit.
So sorry
Another delurker wanting to say that I am very sorry for your loss.
Give me something to kick. Damn.