22 weeks, 2 days.

by Alexa on January 14, 2008

No heartbeat on Baby A.

I can’t think of anything else to say, except maybe a hearty Fuck You to the receptionist who, when making our follow-up appointment for next week, after looking DIRECTLY AT MY CHART and then my swollen, tearstained face, said “Twins, right?”

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Kate January 14, 2008 at 2:16 pm

I am so very sorry, my heart breaks for you….

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Emma B January 14, 2008 at 2:18 pm

Oh, no no no. I am so sorry.

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Debrah January 14, 2008 at 2:19 pm

Oh my God, I am just heartbroken for you

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Jess January 14, 2008 at 2:23 pm

Not much moves me to tears, but I am sitting here with tears sliding down my face over your loss. We are all here for you. *hugs*

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Megs January 14, 2008 at 2:32 pm

Alexa, there are no words. I’m so sorry and will be thinking of you nonstop.

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Sue January 14, 2008 at 2:35 pm

I am so sorry.

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Jessie January 14, 2008 at 2:36 pm

I am so sad to hear this, Alexa. My thoughts are with you and Scott. There are just no words to tell you how sorry I am for you.

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Kristina January 14, 2008 at 2:41 pm

I am so incredibly sorry. My prayers are with you.

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Ariel January 14, 2008 at 2:42 pm

Hugs dear.

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silver January 14, 2008 at 2:43 pm

That’s not fair. I wish I had something better to say.

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Sarah January 14, 2008 at 2:44 pm

I am so sorry…

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Teej January 14, 2008 at 2:46 pm

Oh, Alexa. My heart dropped into my stomach when I read your post, and I don’t know what to say. I can’t even imagine what you’re going through, but for what it’s worth, I know you’ll be occupying my thoughts for a long time.

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swisschard January 14, 2008 at 2:46 pm

another very sorry reader, knowing there is nothing we can do, expecting such different news, and so seriously dismally sorry

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SparklieSunShine January 14, 2008 at 2:51 pm

((hugs)) New reader here and I am so very sorry to hear you. Good thoughts your way.

Thoughts of sending packages with smelly gym socks in the way of the receptionist, though.

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SparklieSunShine January 14, 2008 at 2:52 pm

I meant to say this instead of you up there. whoops.

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Barbara January 14, 2008 at 2:53 pm

Goddamn it. That is not fucking fair. I am so sorry.

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jonniker January 14, 2008 at 2:54 pm

I’m so very sorry, Alexa. My heart breaks for you and Scott. Much, much love.

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amanda January 14, 2008 at 2:56 pm

fuck. i am so so so sorry. so incredibly sorry. fuck.

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Katie January 14, 2008 at 2:57 pm

I know it doesn’t help, but I’m so sorry, and of you all.

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margot January 14, 2008 at 2:59 pm

Oh no Alexa! I’m so so sorry. How awful, how un-fucking fair.

Sending warm and safe thoughts to you guys.

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Schnozz January 14, 2008 at 3:01 pm

Alexa. Oh my God. I’m so sorry.

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Jen January 14, 2008 at 3:05 pm

Oh, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I am so tremendously sorry, sweetie.

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Farah January 14, 2008 at 3:07 pm

Alexa- oh my heart is breaking for you and Scot and fam.

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MsPrufrock January 14, 2008 at 3:07 pm

Oh Alexa, I’m so, so, sorry.

I’ll be thinking of you and Scott.

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Artblog January 14, 2008 at 3:10 pm

OH NO! I hate saying sorry, seems so lame, I guess really I’m heartbroken for you, so fucking unfair :(

All I can do is give you a huge HUG for the moment!

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B. Mare January 14, 2008 at 3:14 pm

I’m so, so sorry to hear this. Oh honey. Just…thinking of you and wishing so much it could have turned out differently.

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ecogeeko January 14, 2008 at 3:16 pm

this is so heartbreakingly sad. what a cruel shock. My heart goes out to you.

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Jendeis January 14, 2008 at 3:17 pm

Oh my God. I am so sorry Alexa. This just sucks. We’re all thinking and praying for you guys.

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Erin January 14, 2008 at 3:18 pm

Oh Alexa, I’m so sorry. I’m sending a big hug your way and thinking of you and Scott.

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She Likes Purple January 14, 2008 at 3:19 pm

My heart is broken in half and I have tears streaming down my face for you. I am sorry, a million times over.

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Amanda 2 January 14, 2008 at 3:19 pm

I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you.

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electriclady January 14, 2008 at 3:20 pm

Oh Alexa. I just…oh fuck. I am so sorry. Thinking of you.

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Jul January 14, 2008 at 3:21 pm

I’m so sorry, Alexa… I’ll be thinking of you, Scott and your family.

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Susan January 14, 2008 at 3:22 pm

I am so very very sorry.

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KL January 14, 2008 at 3:22 pm

That wasn’t supposed to happen :( This is so wrong. I’m so sorry!

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Molly January 14, 2008 at 3:23 pm

God, Alexa, I’m so sorry. Just really…cruel. I’m so sorry.

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Julie January 14, 2008 at 3:24 pm

Alexa, I’m stunned and so terribly sorry.

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Veronica January 14, 2008 at 3:37 pm

Oh fuck. Just fuck.

Oh hun, I wish I knew the right thing to say. This sucks. I’m so sorry.

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Nancy January 14, 2008 at 3:38 pm

Oh Alexa, oh fuck. I’m so horribly sorry for you and Scott.

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Face January 14, 2008 at 3:46 pm

I am usually just a reader…but I felt compelled to post.

There are no words, to express my sympathy for you, your husband and your families…

So horrifically unfair…

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Ronna January 14, 2008 at 3:46 pm

Alexa, I am so very sorry. There just aren’t any other words. I am heartbroken for you.

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leenie January 14, 2008 at 4:02 pm

oh no oh no oh no.

so sorry. so so sorry.

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tipsymarie January 14, 2008 at 4:07 pm

Oh, Alexa. I am crying for you. I am just so incredibly sorry.

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megan January 14, 2008 at 4:08 pm

oh fuck, alexa.
there are no words.
i am so, so sorry.

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Mel January 14, 2008 at 4:12 pm

I’m speechless and so so sorry.

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wavybrains January 14, 2008 at 4:20 pm

So sorry. So very sorry. You’re in my thoughts.

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EJW January 14, 2008 at 4:23 pm

Oh Alexa, I’m so sorry. So very very sorry.

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Madge January 14, 2008 at 4:31 pm

Another reader thinking of you. I am so, so terribly sorry.

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AussieAndrea January 14, 2008 at 4:33 pm

Farking spewin, as we’d say down here. That really sucks. You’re in my thoughts, I hope that you are doing ok, as best you can…

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aimee January 14, 2008 at 4:37 pm

Oh, Alexa … I wish I could give you a huge hug and cry with you. I’m crying FOR you, from gloomy Chicago (and it’s suddenly feeling even more gloomy now). I don’t have the words to tell you how sorry I am. You and Scott and Baby B are in my prayers.

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