22 weeks, 2 days.

by Alexa on January 14, 2008

No heartbeat on Baby A.

I can’t think of anything else to say, except maybe a hearty Fuck You to the receptionist who, when making our follow-up appointment for next week, after looking DIRECTLY AT MY CHART and then my swollen, tearstained face, said “Twins, right?”

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Kathy January 14, 2008 at 4:57 pm

I am so, so incredibly sorry to hear this. Please take good care of yourselves and know that there are many of us out here whose hearts are breaking alongside yours.

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Sarah January 14, 2008 at 4:57 pm

My heart hurts for you. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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Kirby January 14, 2008 at 5:00 pm

So very sorry. There are no good words.

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Emily January 14, 2008 at 5:14 pm

I am so so sorry, Alexa. So sorry.

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Lala January 14, 2008 at 5:20 pm

Mare sent me. I’m terribly sorry that you’ve suffered this loss. Keep talking to us…..

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Bittermama January 14, 2008 at 5:26 pm

Oh my god. Alexa I’m just in total shock and I don’t know what to say. I’m sick to my stomach and lightheaded. I can’t even cry. This is just so wrong. I’ll be holding you and Scott and Baby B close in my thoughts.

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Becky January 14, 2008 at 5:46 pm

Oh sweetie. Oh sweetie I am so sorry. Sorry doesn’t begin to encompass how I feel right now, but I have no better words. I only wish I did.

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Leaf, probably... January 14, 2008 at 5:53 pm

Sorry. Just, sorry.

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Vixen January 14, 2008 at 5:55 pm

To tell you how sorry I am for you seems pitiful, but I am so sorry. I will be praying for all of you.

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Sally January 14, 2008 at 5:56 pm

Sorry. Keep strong for baby B and hubby.

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Newt January 14, 2008 at 5:57 pm

Oh shit–no! I’m so sorry. There are no words, and all I can say is just how sorry I am and how un-fucking-fair that is, and I hope that bitch receptionist burns in hell. You and your family will be in my thoughts and in my heart.

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elizabeth January 14, 2008 at 6:04 pm

Oh, no, Alexa. I am so, so sorry…there really are no words. I will be thinking of you all.

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Heidi January 14, 2008 at 6:10 pm

Oh my God, I’m so so sorry.

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Lori January 14, 2008 at 6:12 pm

There is nothing to say that could possible ease your pain. Words are empty right now. Love and prayers are everywhere for you, your husband and both your babies. “God speed little man, sweet dreams little man, my love will fly to you each night on angel’s wings….god speed, sweet dreams..”
Dixie Chicks.

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Heather January 14, 2008 at 6:22 pm

I’m so sorry.

I’m thinking of you.

Please let me know if there is something I can do.

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thalia January 14, 2008 at 6:25 pm

Oh alexa I’m so very very sorry for your loss. What utterly awful,heartbreaking news.

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elizasmom January 14, 2008 at 6:27 pm

I am so sorry, so very, very sorry.

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Jenni January 14, 2008 at 6:30 pm

I am at a complete loss of words. My heart is aching for you.

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My Reality January 14, 2008 at 6:30 pm

I am so sorry, Alexa.

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All Adither January 14, 2008 at 6:33 pm

Oh no, no, no. Is there any chance the baby was just in a weird position? Any chance at all?

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Waiting Amy January 14, 2008 at 6:35 pm

I’m sorry doesn’t say enough. This is shocking and heart wenching. I wish there was more we could do for you and Scott. Thinking of you Alexa, take care.

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Cricket January 14, 2008 at 6:40 pm

There are no words. We are thinking of both of you and sending our love.

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erica January 14, 2008 at 6:44 pm

I’m so sorry you are going through this. You are all in my thoughts and prayers!

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Dead Bug January 14, 2008 at 6:47 pm

I am so very, very sorry. You are in my thoughts.

–Bugs

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Star January 14, 2008 at 7:03 pm

So very sorry to hear this sad news. There is no understanding why something like this could happen. Will be thinking of you and your family during this difficult time.

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christina January 14, 2008 at 7:04 pm

Oh my god no. I know you are in so much pain right now. Please know there are people out here pulling for you and your family.
Hugs to you.

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Karen January 14, 2008 at 7:04 pm

Longtime lurker here…I’m so very sorry.

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Humuhumu January 14, 2008 at 7:05 pm

I’m so, so sorry. I want so badly to be able to say something that will help you even just a little bit, but I cannot even fathom how. Just know that despite the uselessness of it, I wish so completely that things were different for you right now. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss.

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Melinda January 14, 2008 at 7:05 pm

There are no words. My thoughs are with you all.

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Shawna January 14, 2008 at 7:06 pm

I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your child. Your family is in our thoughts.

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Liz January 14, 2008 at 7:11 pm

I am so so sorry. This is heartbreaking.

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Christy January 14, 2008 at 7:13 pm

what?!?! no, no, no! Oh, I can’t even begin to tell you how sorry I am to hear this, Alexa.

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Katrina January 14, 2008 at 7:16 pm

I am soooo sorry. I wish I could say something better, but there are just no words.

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Leggy/Clover January 14, 2008 at 7:17 pm

Oh God- this breaks my heart. I am sooo sooo sorry for your loss. I wish it wasn’t so. Oh how awful. Thinking of you and your husband…

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elise January 14, 2008 at 7:27 pm

I also had that horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. But maybe the baby is hiding? Maybe something is in the way? Is there any hope at all?

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brid January 14, 2008 at 7:30 pm

shit. so sorry.

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lisa January 14, 2008 at 7:33 pm

I’m so very, very sorry.

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Melissa January 14, 2008 at 7:33 pm

I am so sorry, Alexa. Is there any chance of a mistake? My thoughts are with you.

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Lori January 14, 2008 at 7:38 pm

I am so terribly sorry. My heart is just breaking for you.

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Andrea January 14, 2008 at 7:40 pm

There is nothing to say that will make you feel better. I wish there was. This is something one learns from loss. But even knowing this to be true, I want to say something to help but can only scream from the unfairness of it all.

The doctor’s receptionist has no soul. People like that should not be allowed to work around other people.

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Dooneybug January 14, 2008 at 7:41 pm

Oh God Alexa. There are no words, only I’m just so sorry for your loss.

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Laurel January 14, 2008 at 7:41 pm

I am so so so so sorry. This is just plain not fair and not right. Please take good care of yourself and let us know if there is absolutely anything we can do. You, your husband, and baby B are in our thoughts and prayers.

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Sami January 14, 2008 at 7:42 pm

I am so sorry – there are no words that will provide you comfort, but I am truly sorry. This just sucks.

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kris January 14, 2008 at 7:47 pm

I am so very terribly sorry…

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Michelle January 14, 2008 at 7:50 pm

I am so very sorry.

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Jen January 14, 2008 at 8:00 pm

Motherfucker. I’m am so sorry, this is just too sad.

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Meghan January 14, 2008 at 8:10 pm

I am SO, SO sorry.

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OrchidLover January 14, 2008 at 8:13 pm

My god. I’m so sorry. I hope you are okay. My heart breaks for you from across the country. I don’t know what to say other than I can’t believe it and I’m so, so sorry.

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Melissa in TN January 14, 2008 at 8:19 pm

I am so very sorry. You are in my prayers.

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marie baguette January 14, 2008 at 8:19 pm

I am so very sorry. As other commenters said it, keep strong for baby B. And you should put in a formal complaint about that bitch. Take care

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