My dad died last week.
The funeral is tomorrow, thus in between his dying and his funeral fell the holidays, which were honestly joyful; the day he died was also the day I saw an apparently healthy and obviously human baby at my nuchal translucency scan. It would be nice if events occurred in emotionally coherent groupings, but as I am all too aware, they seldom do. To be fair, even my emotions seldom occur in emotionally coherent groupings, especially when it comes to my father. I suppose this is fitting, then.
More, much, anon.
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that is a poignant paragraph, thank you for sharing. We’ll wait for you.
I’m so sorry to hear about your father. My thoughts are with you all.
My condolences, Alexa. I’ll be thinking of your family tomorrow.
So sorry Alexa. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Thoughts with you. We’ll be here when you are ready to post. Take care of yourself, Simone, and the obviously human baby.
Aww, I’m so sorry. I lost my dad when my son was 1, and he doesn’t remember his grandpa at all. While New Baby won’t know him, at least Simone will have her memories of your dad.
My mother died unexpectedly two years ago during the week between Christmas and New Year’s. You are right–the emotional coherency is askew. Grace and peace to you.
Oh, I am sorry about your dad…I know your relationship with him was fraught. And I am happy about your scan. Oh, my.
I am so sorry for your loss, and so joyful for the baby news. It’s a bit of a rollercoaster, I’m sure. My thoughts are with you.
I’m so sorry for your loss, all the more so because your relationship with him was complicated. I’m so glad to hear about the good ultrasound. I echo the hope that peace and clarity come eventually.
Oh, Alexa, I am so sorry and am sending comforting thoughts out to you and your family.
It is so hard to have such extremes of emotion co-mingling at the same time.
Sending a virtual hug.
I’m so sorry. Nothing like a little emotional schizophrenia for the holidays. I hope you find some peace and get to enjoy the holidays (and I assume a break from school).
I’m sorry to hear your Dad has died. Whatever the faults in your relationship, he was your Dad and it’s a horrible thing to happen especially at this time of year. Actually, to be honest, it’s horrible at any time.
Totally overjoyed to hear of the mini-human residing in you. Will admit to some anxiety with the long silence but now see why that was so.
Will look forward to more when you feel ready and able to share.
I am so sorry to hear abourt your father but so excited to hear about your human baby. I will be thinking of you.
*hug*
I’m very sorry for the loss of your father.
I am so sorry for the loss of your father. Many hugs and warm thoughts to you as you wade through the days and weeks to come.
Congratulations on a decidedly human baby!
Alexa, I am so sorry to hear about your father’s death. It is never easy to lose a loved one.
I am so sorry for you loss.
I’m so sorry, Alexa.
Shit. Thinking of you hon. That’s a biggie.
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I’m so sorry to hear about your father, such an emotional holiday to have to endure. My father passed away when I was 4 months pregnant with my first. I had to be strong for baby and for my family, which resulted in nearly 9 months of PPD. My thoughts are with your family as you remember his life…
I am so, so sorry, Alexa. My dad recently died unexpectedly, too (on the 10th), and I am beginning to wonder if the shock will ever wear off.
Please accept my deepest condolences … and heartiest congratulations on the NT scan. Small wonder your emotional state is incoherent.
So sorry for your loss Alexis. Condolences to you and your family. However, I am glad the nt scan went well.
I’m so sorry for your loss. What a difficult time to go through this.
Congratulations on the little person, I am glad things are looking well on that front.
Thinking of you and your family ~ and so glad to hear healthy baby news!
Oh Alexa, I am sorry to hear it. Hope you are being supported by loved ones. Take care.
And congratulations on the human baby!
Oh, Alexa! I’m so sorry to hear about your dad! Sending love and good wishes to you and your family. Thank you for letting us know your good news as well <3
Oh Alexa, that is crappy crappy news. I’m so sorry. x
My thoughts are with you at this Emotionally Complicated time. Delighted that the baby is sweetly human and looking just fine. So very sorry for the loss of your Dad. The death of a family member whose relationship with you has always been fraught is hard, all that unresolved feeling now all tangled with grief. Again, I am so sorry, and thinking of you.
“It would be nice if events occurred in emotionally coherent groupings” is wonderful.
I’m so sorry your dad died. I’m so happy the little fetus is chugging along nicely.
I am so sorry about your Dad, but so happy about your little human baby.
I’m so sorry to hear about your father. A death is a big thing.
And I’m also delighted to hear from you and to know that Nature Baby is healthy and human.
I am so sorry for your loss, its seems strange to congratulate you at the same time but I hope you have some comfort knowing the pregnancy is going well. You are very brave to share with your readers.
I am so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry!
Emotional whiplash. Thinking of you during this most wonderful and heartbreaking time.
So, so sorry. You and your family will be in my prayers.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s hard to lose your dad at any time, but the holidays make it seem so much worse.
Glad to hear your baby is human and healthy, though.
I’m so sorry. I will be thinking about all of you.
I am so, so sorry about your father, and thrilled that your baby is doing so well. Hoping you can breathe this week, and deal with each moment as it comes.
My thoughts are with you. Thank you for sharing.
I’m thinking of you and giving you an awkward virtual hug.
I’m sorry for your loss.
I am sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I am glad that baby is doing well.
Wow. That’s quite a lot of up and down to handle. I am sorry to hear about your father. I imagine when my dad dies it will be a weird pile of emotions too. But the bottom line is this – we’re all thinking of you and your family and hoping for a calm and peaceful 2012. :) /hugs/
Alexa – Thinking of you. We are here.
Ah…mixed emotions.
I am so sorry for your loss.
So sorry for your loss, and for the emotional whiplash you must be feeling. Life can be head-spinning sometimes…
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